My other half👫
Story of my family and i
Husband’s joke to lighten me up from the heavy load of stress I’m under.
I feel like a terrible mother and sister. I have such a short temper towards them now. I can’t help but yell when I’m irritated. School is stressing me out because my grades are average. I want to be above that and I’m pushing myself to my limit that I pop when I’m disturbed out of my zone. I’m trying to control myself to not be cranky. I’m looking forward for a stress free day this Friday overlooking the ocean by the cliffs. Seriously, I just want to get this last year of school over with. I want to get started on my career and be considered a responsible adult/mother/wife. Averie is starting preschool next year, and thank God Nelson and I will graduate college just in time.
When Hubz and I get home from school, Averie greets us with such a loud voice!
My husband gave me such a good back massage. It took my stress away for a little bit. I feel calm now.
Late for school. See this spot. Something exploded right in front of my house and left this stain. Averie woke up saying she was scared and my brother woke up running out the room. My neighbors came out of their homes wondering what it was.. If this was a joke, that’s not funny because it scared everyone who saw and heard it.
I own casual clothes. Nothing trendy, just comfortable outfits. However, when I can afford to buy clothes, Foreign Exchange would take over my closet. I’m so into those outfits! I can’t wait to go shopping with Averie and not worry about “not having enough money.” I would also be able to shop like a real asian and buy apparels at Nordstrom. HAHA. It’s really whatever though, I don’t mind shopping at the swap meet or cheap retail places. Except, I want to try buying clothing with quality when I can afford it.
Thank you!! Heads up I’m not too good at keepin up with communication. Although I want to interact with parents on here, most of the time I’m stressed with school or just busy.
That Curel Itch Defense lotion the beeeeeeeest! Ever since school started and got harder, my body’s reaction towards the stress was to itchy away! Terrible itching on my hands and later on random places on my body. Without this lotion I would keep bleeding on my hands and every place I would excessively scratch under stress. I’m studying chemistry at the moment.
I feel like I can’t make my family proud because I’m not going to be a nurse. I just had an emotional breakdown and my husband comforted me. Seriously, I’ll be a great RT. And when my family sees that, they’ll be happy I didn’t choose to become a RN. I wish my sister was here. I miss her. The big sister she is would be comforting me in a heartbeat.. Sigh.
Selfieee and Averie in the background watching tv.
To eat at Benihana’s sounds so deeelicious right now. Sadly I can’t! :/
Seems legit.. HAHA! 😂
Late Night Thoughts: Something Personal
Growing up I felt like I didn’t belong anywhere. Even though I was around certain types of people, I had no connection with them. I was with them so I wasn’t alone. I have issue with friends, now that I’ve realized it. I can’t trust anyone, but my husband. He’s my best friend, and finally.. Someone who loves and tries to understand me. When thoughts of my past invade my imagination, I feel this fuel inside of me. I get the urge to push myself and prove everyone wrong one day. I’ll have what they will never have.. And then I come to my senses and see how stupid I am. I sound like a villain. Although I want to reach the top, I don’t want to forget how I started at the bottom. I don’t want to pray a selfish prayer. I don’t want to be like the people who made me try to hate myself. I want to bring others up as I go up. I’ve forgiven people from my childhood because that past, we were still kids who didn’t know much, and how cruel words were to others. Then again some memories are stained in my mind because of how it strongly affected me. I can’t do anything about it now. Life goes on and I still take it day by day for it all to slip away. I don’t want my daughter to experience hurtful criticism from classmates as she grows up. I want to guide her to be as beautiful as she is from the outside to the inside. Therefore, I have to start with myself first.
Thank you!
